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A Lonely Crowd


“Those neon-lights just starting to glow.”

“Those people just started stepping out down on the road.”

“Those crowd are started gathering and soon it’d be a flood of moving legs flowing in a stream but going nowhere.”

“Still this wave rises. Everyday.”

“But why this happens everyday? Why this cycle keeps on rolling and rolling though it still stands in the same place where it began?”

“May be this is what they call life. Running and running but as a matter of fact not going. After all, you gotta keep rolling to keep yourself away from the moss. May be they come out everyday to know what’s going around, what’s out there, to face the reality.”

“But… is it true? They ride on the wave each neon-flooded night to face the reality? Really is it so? Or the reverse? Isn’t it that they want to escape from the reality by losing themselves each night amidst that huge surge.”

“But what’s the reality they’re escaping from?”

“Look at them yourself. What you see?”

I look at all the lonely people.

“That’s why they wander every single night out there right down these neon-lights. To forget that they’re lonely.”

“Among this crowd they feel they’re a part of it. They keep themselves this assurance that they ain’t lonely.”

“That’s what I think. This crowd is hollow. Out there in this crowd, everybody is nobody.”

“But if nobody’s everybody then someone can be anybody. Right?”

“You mean like the Walrus?”

“I am he as you are he as you are me and we are all together. Yeah, that’s what I’m trying to say.”

“Interesting.”

“I mean if they’re all lonely don’t you think somehow they’re actually together.”

“Huh… may be…”

Crumble Thoughts

Time passes by. Days keep on moving. Hours running on. Every second keep on its walk with slow but steady ticking on my wrist-watch like a thriller movie as if the killer strolling through the dark narrow alley.

And we all are afraid of the killer. We don’t want to face him. We want to run away from him. And more we run more the fear grows inside our heart. Once when I was a child someone told me, “The thing you fear has no power, it’s the fear which has the power.”

So I wanted to overcome the fear. So I decided not to run away from the killer. And I opened the door. And I found myself,

“Lost in a romance

Wilderness of pain

And all the children are insane

All the children are insane

Waiting for the summer rain…”

Being obscured in the summer rain I lighted my fire. And then I ride the seven miles long snake to the ancient lake. In the road I met strange people. I walked with them. I looked at their face and they looked at mine. They all are looked similar and familiar also. But I didn’t recognize where I saw them. Suddenly a storm came. Sky turned black. I looked above. I heard some whisper. And they blew me with them. They were riders on the storm. While flying away with them, I remembered where I saw those strange people, in the mirror.

The riders left me in a vast open valley with a straight road leading to the horizon. I lied down the field. And I found those strange people again with me. We all looked bluntly to each other with no meaning on the vision. We all were like hypnotized. Then suddenly the blue bus calling us, we asked the driver where you taking us.

So we set out on the blue bus to meet the killer. “C’mon baby, take a chance with us, and meet me at the back of the blue bus… doing blue rock on a blue bus…”

I don’t know if you’ll join me to meet the killer and embrace him. But remember if you’ll try to escape him, he’ll get you by any means. So be different. Go out and meet him with a smile.

To some I might be a poet so trapped between heaven and hell, to others I might be just another person who’d crushed and burnt. But this much is true you cannot burn out if you’re not on fire.

It’s my life. Only me has the right to control it. It’s me who’ll decide which way to go, where to go, when to go, how to go. Then isn’t it me who to decide when to put a full-stop in it?


Necropolis



The only color they had before their eyes was red. The only sound that was penetrating through their ear was clanking of swords. The sky was brushed into dark scarlet with the color of the setting crimson sun. The soft green grasses of the vast valley grew heavy as thick layer of blood were flowing like a stream over the field.

Concentration. All one needed was minute concentration in every step. Else there might be no chance to breathe again. Ignoring sound of one step might cost a sword stab your life. And he was concentrated. Every step, every clinking, every sound he was analyzing. Blocking every strike of sword by his shield and swift his sword minutely he was moving and moving. Finally he became the only person standing on the ground. He had a deep cut in his left part of chest, severely injured leg. Yet the joy of being the winner mitigated all those pains. Pointing his blood-drowned sword towards the red sky he screamed the winning roar.

He was tired after such a tiresome battle. He was thirsty, looking for a drop of water. But couldn’t find any. The only fluid that was flowing was warm blood. But he kept on searching. And instead he discovered something else, something he never knew existed before.

As he crawled down to every inches of the meadow for water he saw dump of numb, dead figures very closely. He found injured, cripple faces crying to breathe just for one more moment. More his saw those frozen wounded bodies more he became thirsty, and he searched more intensively and became more eager to quench his thrust.

All on a sudden his soul asked him a question, a simple question, “Do you think you are really a winner?” he was perplexed. Stopped for a moment. Looked at the darken sky. And replied to his soul, “No… I ain’t a winner, I win nothing. I just lose less than others.” Standing amidst the vast necropolis he first time discovered the feeling of pain, feeling of love. And finally he sipped a drop of salty warm water that was born from his eye.

I Am

I am my own god
I see through my soul's eyes
I'm my own evil
In my vision truth seems like lies
I may choose stairway to heaven
Or may be hit the highway to hell
I heard the screaming echoes
and the ring of division bell
I see the shine on crazy diamond
And the Lucy in the sky
Drowning in November rain
From here away I’ll fly

I am my own god
I see through my soul's eyes
I'm my own evil
In my vision truth seems like lies
Though the times they are a-changing
But nothing gonna change my world
I’m the rider on the storm
The man who sold the world

I am my own god
I see through my soul's eyes
I'm my own evil
In my vision truth seems like lies
I may choose stairway to heaven
Or highway to hell
No matter what I take
I’ll reach the same place.

Who I Am

Who I am

I don’t know

Don’t know if you hold me

Or just let me go


Sometime I think

I’m a stagnant river

Or a wild rain

May be a vast ocean

Or a hasty fountain


May be I’m a whimsical cloud

Floating in the sky

Or the west wind

That passes you by


May be I’m distant star

Or a deep-rooted tree

May be I’m no-one

Or an eagle so free


Whatever I am

Wild or calm

Full of spirit

Or just numb

Tell me now friend

Who am I

No matter you love or hate me

Just don’t be shy

I Walk


Neon studded night. Red and yellow lights were running across so fast, so much haste all around, they had somewhere very urgent to go. I didn’t know to where? It’s okay. But did they themselves know where they were setting off to? Few rhythmic systematic red and green lights were flashing in some fixed points controlling the speedy motion of those red-yellow lights. All around your head above there’s just bright alluring light flashing on trying to inject the first of the seven sins into you, the greed. The lights were so bright that you’d even be blind. And I’d prefer no risk. So I kept my vision fixed at the ground at my shadow. I really enjoyed how my shadow grew longer and then shorter as I walk away from one street-light to another. I walked with thoughts rambling in my head.

We all are running. For what? We want equilibrium. That’s the phase everything wants to be in. That’s why water flows, wind blows, to be stable. We are running cause we also want to be stable. We think that when we’ll touch our dreams we’d be stable. So we run to catch our dreams.

People have dreams. They live for it, run for it. When they achieve it they start running more as their dreams getting larger. So is the dream like the horizon? We always can run for it, but never can touch it?

May be dream is like the other bank of the river. We imagine that other side as a fairy-land. But when we're there it seems as a normal kind of thing. Then the former side seems to be more dreamy.

So whatever the dream is do we always run for it throughout all our life?

To chase our dreams we are taught to run according to time. We try to be punctual. Punctuality. The word appreciated by all the successful people. But isn’t it the word for machines? This is the word that makes you perfect, out of chaos. You’ll be in the peak of success. But only thing that you’ll lose is your beauty. Cause there nothing more beautiful than being chaotic.

So what will you choose among your dream and beauty? Really a hard call. These words are all so... so...confusing. really hard to penetrate them through. Words. The greatest magician of the world rather of the universe. Or I better consider the word, ‘Words’ as the greatest magic. Magician is the guy who believes in it and use this simple yet most powerful thing, ‘Words’. May be I’m wrong. ‘Words’ are just a medium, of course mediums are important, but I’d better consider the master of magic is the eternal ‘Imagination’. That’s the thing that never changes. Never dies. Words, their meaning, their usages change. Even whole the languages change. They live, they die. Their magic fades pale. But the ‘Imagination’s deep beneath those words never change, never grow old. They live forever young. But ain’t again we back to the ‘Words’ who preserve the ‘Imagination’s to live forever? In fact then we see ‘Words’ do the magic. See, they die but keep the heart inside them alive, the ‘Imagination’. So who does the magic actually? The ‘Words’ or the ‘Imagination’ or the man who dare to have them both or the nature who created all of them???

Whatever we do why do we do it? Whatever we do in life will be insignificant, but it's very important that we do it, because nobody else will. Is it so?

What we are living for? What are we grabbing to? What the thing we don’t wanna loose? Those dreams? That beauty? Those words? Or that imagination?

But isn’t it true that no matter whatever we hold on to nothing lasts? ... but still nothing is lost...

“If the doors of perception were cleansed everything would appear to man as it is: infinite.”

Star studded night. Dark. Cold wind is blowing through my hair. Continuous sound of cricket from the field on my left and a discontinuous howling of something from a distant are being heard. I’ve just walked through two decades wandering in these mazes of broken thoughts. Being lost in my thoughts I stumble on a stone. I smirk and keep walking into the depth of my thoughts...